Capture Your Grief - Day 9: Music

Rascal Flatts - Won't Let Go

Favorite Lyrics:

I will stand by you
I will help you through
When you've done all you can do
If you can't cope
I will dry your eyes
I will fight your fight
I will hold you tight
And I won't let go

I love this song for not only Carter, but for Cohen as well. I will never let go of any of my babies for as long as I live. I cry every time I hear this song.

Mercy Me - The Hurt and the Healer

Favorite Lyrics:

So here I am
What's left of me
Where glory meets my suffering

I'm alive
Even though a part of me has died
You take my heart and breathe it back to life
I fall into Your arms open wide
When the hurt and the healer collide

Breathe
Sometimes I feel it's all that I can do
Pain so deep that I can hardly move
Just keep my eyes completely fixed on You
Lord take hold and pull me through

So here I am
What's left of me
Where glory meets my suffering

This song. Everything about it, the lyrics describe this journey so well. This impossible journey that I could never walk without my Healer. 

Selah - I will Carry You

 Lyrics: 

There were photographs I wanted to take
Things I wanted to show you
Sing sweet lullabies, wipe your teary eyes
Who could love you like this?People say that I am brave but I’m not
Truth is I’m barely hanging on
But there’s a greater story
Written long before me
Because He loves you like this

So I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years
I will carry you
All my life
And I will praise the One Who’s chosen me
To carry you

Such a short time
Such a long road
All this madness
But I know
That the silence
Has brought me to His voice
And He says…

I’ve shown her photographs of time beginning
Walked her through the parted seas
Angel lullabies, no more teary eyes
Who could love her like this?

I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years
I will carry you
All your life
And I will praise the One Who’s chosen Me
To carry you

This song makes me cry every time. EVERY time. Written by a mom pregnant with a child that was not expected to live. Written by a mom who knows the pain of burying her baby. A mom that knows that Jesus is now carrying her child when she can't.