Wednesday, April 22, 2015

(This post will be a little vague. I'm fine with that as we are still digesting a few things. And maybe I'm just not ready to say the words "out loud" yet.) 

I've started to write this post a few times, but it just wasn't happening. We recently found out that Cohen will have some life long challenges in certain areas of his life. It's not the news we were hoping for, but wasn't completely unexpected. It is an answer that we needed, for ourselves as his parents, and to better understand how to help Cohen be the best Cohen he can be.

I've spent a lot of days in tears. I've spent brief moments in the why him area. Thinking about all that he's been through and then to have this on top sometimes just seems unfair. My heart has been heavy for him and what this might mean for his life. But we also know that he as overcome lots of challenges in his life and this probably won't be the last of them.

Having a new diagnosis isn't easy. It's not the "he'll grow out of it, he just needs more time" answer we were still holding out for. No parent wants their child to struggle or to have things be more difficult for them or be seen as "different". It hurts our hearts as parents to know that Cohen will continue to have challenges, but we also know that it doesn't change who Cohen is. Adding a new word to the chart doesn't change his heart, his smile, his love for trains and ramps and dirt. If anything, it changes who we are and gives us more understanding and better resources.

He has faced so many challenges already. The doctors at his appointments mentioned several time that he is resilient, which we absolutely know to be true. We know he isn't one to give up or quit fighting and that he always does things his own way, in his own time. We know that this won't be anything different and that we love him for who he is and we will always fight for him and with him.

Friday, April 17, 2015

Hot Mess

This guy is usually a little bit of a hot mess. He brings so much light and life to us. Always making just enough mischief but maintaining that sweet little grin that you can't resist.

 Everything a little brother should be, a little bit of sass and a little bit of sweet. A playmate and an instigator. Lover of trucks, mud and potato heads. A healer and stealer of our hearts. And always, always a mess. 

And soon to be TWO years old. I can't take it! 

Tuesday, April 14, 2015

Easter 2015

I'm a little behind, but here are some pictures from our Easter.

This handsome little boy was not pleased when I put this outfit on him. He cried and cried, sorry kid! I really wanted the boys to have bow ties to wear to church so I made them each one a couple nights before Easter, not perfect, but made with love!

Every year we do an Easter egg hunt with the cousins. My sister gets all the eggs ready and we go to a little park in between all of our houses. We had a little picnic and let the kids go "find" eggs, they really just ran around picking up as many as they could since it's just an open field. The boys loved collecting the eggs and stopping to open each one to see if there was candy in it. 

Easter morning we keep pretty simple. The boys each got a stuffed animal and some bubbles. Cohen was so curious how the Easter bunny got into the house. The Easter service at our church is always one of my favorites, we have an Easter choir and they always do a really great job. This is the best picture I could get Easter morning. 

I asked my sister to take some pictures of the boys in their Easter clothes before the egg hunt. I got the boys all dressed up and crossed my fingers that they would cooperate. The pictures turned out SO cute! Don't they clean up nice? They are the sweetest!