Capture Your Grief: Day 2 - Identity

2. Identity: What is your child’s name? Why did you chose that name? What is the meaning of their name? If they were born, what were their birth details. What were their features? Who are they?

Our Carter Garen was born on June 5, 2011, along with his twin brother Cohen. The boys were born at 25 weeks. Carter weighed 2 lbs and was 13 1/4 inches long.

He had the tiniest, longest fingers and toes. He had a perfect little nose and a mostly bald little head.  He was perfect in every way, except that his little body was too sick. When I look back at his pictures, he looks sick, but I don't remember him that way. I remember him as perfect and beautiful.

Who is he? He is our son. He is a twin and a brother. He is a grandson and nephew. He is our little boy. I don't know his personality, I don't know what he would look like today. I don't know what toys he would like. That is one of wounds that cut the deepest in my heart, is not knowing who he would be if he were here physically. I do know that in heaven, he is whole. He can run and jump and play and smile and laugh. I know that when I see him again, I will hold onto him for as long as he will let me.