Danny has Wednesdays off of work for the summer so he drives down after work on Tuesdays and then leaves for work from here on Thursday mornings. After I got to hold Cohen yesterday I asked the nurse today if Danny could hold him when he got here today. He has been stable enough that she thought that would be a good idea. I was so excited all day for Danny to finally get to hold him. Cohen enjoyed his snuggle time with his dad and was very well behaved again. He got to snooze with his daddy for about 2 hours. Not much excitement today other than that. His labs were checked this morning and his kidneys are doing fine but his liver function tests were up a little so they are going to continue to watch those. Cohen's nicu friend gave him some of his old preemie clothes that he has outgrown. Cohen doesn't get to wear clothes quite yet but we put one of the little hats on him and it fit perfectly! He looked like a little cupcake :)
There will probably be quite a few posts with my rambling, but it helps me process everything that is going on. I think that by being a mom I am learning more about the heart of God. Last night in Psalms I was reading about how the Lord takes delight in us as his children. He wants to bless us and he wants good things for us. This is something I have struggled with but when I look at Cohen, it starts to make more sense to me. I think everything he does is so cute, from his wiggling fingers and toes to his grumpy faces that he makes. I truly do delight in him, even in the smallest things that he does. I could sit and look at Cohen all day (and I often do!). When Cohen has to get his blood drawn, or a new IV started, or his little rash poked at, it hurts me too. I would do anything to take his pain away. The Lord is always thinking of us, always finding ways to bless us, waiting for us to look to him. He doesn't want bad things to happen to us. They do happen, that's a part of life with sin and he does allow us to go through them, but he hurts with us. He feels our pain and he walks with us, offering to carry our load for us. I know he has been carrying our burdens for us through this. I don't know how anyone who didn't have someone greater and more powerful than themselves to believe in would be able to make it through this.