Who You'd Be Today

I have been in a fair amount of denial that Cohen will soon be turning two. I think this birthday may be harder for me than the first. How can it have been 2 years since our baby boys entered this world? That means it has been two years since I have seen and held and kissed Carter. How is that even possible? I would give anything to be able to hold him again. Will it still feel like this when he should have been turning 5 and 10 and 16? I think a lot about what he would be like right now. If he would look just like Cohen, or like the same foods, or what his little personality would be like. Man, I miss that little boy. It doesn't get easier. It does get "different", but it's still not easy.

Kenny Chesney - Who You'd Be Today

Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
I feel you everywhere I go.
I see your smile, I see your face,
I hear you laughin' in the rain.
I still can't believe you're gone.

It ain't fair: you died too young,
Like the story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how I miss you,
All the hell that I've been through,
Just knowin' no-one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonder,
Who'd you be today?

Would you see the world? Would you chase your dreams?
Settle down with a family,
I wonder what would you name your babies?
Some days the sky's so blue,
I feel like I can talk to you,
An' I know it might sound crazy.

It ain't fair: you died too young,
Like the story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how I miss you,
All the hell that I've been through,
Just knowin' no-one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonder,
Who you'd be today?

Today, today, today.
Today, today, today.

Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
The only thing that gives me hope,
Is I know I'll see you again some day.

Some day, some day, some day.