Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Not What I had in Mind...

 I was planning a "hooray, 20 weeks, halfway!" post, and yes we ARE 20 weeks so hooray! The babies are moving a LOT and Danny even got to feel his first kick. I was laying on the couch the other day and felt something pushing so I felt my stomach and sure enough, there was a little baby part of some kind pushing out. I'm not sure if it was a head, foot, elbow or what but it was definitely there!
However, I went to my OB today and it didn't go quite how I had hoped. There is a small calcium deposit in Baby A's heart, which is the least of the worries right now, it usually goes away on its own. We had been with the ultrasound tech for almost an hour and she kept looking and looking and focusing on the membranes (the bubble) that the babies are in. So she looked some more and kept measuring and then she pointed out how Baby A has a wide open space full of fluid. Baby B's space is tiny, with not very much fluid. Then she said she needed to measure my cervix. I had been having some contractions after work a couple days ago but I figured they were just the Braxton Hicks people always talk about, even though I was having quite a few. And I knew I had the appointment the next day so I tried not to worry about it too much. So basically 1) They are worried about Baby B and the fact that he doesn't look like he has enough fluid. They think it may be twin to twin transfusion. The babies share a placenta and some blood vessels so what can happen is one twin is sort of a like a "donor" and one is a "recipient" so one baby doesn't get enough blood flow and the other gets too much and they can grow differently 2) My cervix is shortening and opening, which also isn't good.
For now, they are sending us back to UW next week to get more ultrasounds to see if it is twin to twin transfusion and to see if my cervix changes. Hopefully they can give us a better idea of what is going on and what the plan is from here on out. I am back in bed and not working, its possible that I may be done working for good. Definitely not the "everything looks good" I was hoping for. We are a little nervous, but hoping that bed rest (aaaaaaah) will help the babies continue to grow and stay in there until they are big enough to come out. We know that we will do whatever it takes for the babies.
At this point, I lay in bed and rest and pray that the babies decide to start behaving! We know that God gave us these babies for a reason and that he is in control. That is an easier thing to say than to live, but we are doing our best. We just want our babies to be okay. So, for now, I lay around, watch movies and eat and drink lots of fluids. We are trying to stay positive and hope that they saw this early enough that we can do what we need to to keep the babies growing.
It was good to see the babies moving around in there and it is reassuring that I definitely feel them moving around a lot. Both babies are head down, Baby A is on the left and Baby B on the right. I have some pictures that I will put up later sometime. Please pray for us, that my body will cooperate and be a good home for the babies and that the babies will continue to grow and stay in there a lot longer and that we will trust God to take care of us!


  1. O honey I wish you the best of luck that is a scary situation to be in and I am so sorry for you, you are doing everything you need to do so just keep doing it. I know what was meant to be will be but that does not make thing any easier. I know we dont know each other the best but if you need anything at all just let me know.

  2. Neighbor of Karen's here. I just want you to know that I am lifting your precious family - especially the babies that you are carrying. God WILL take care of you, He is already, as you know! Remember to do exactly as the doctors say! Bed rest means bed rest! If you could use meals, take those who offer up on their offer - consider this my offer - just let Karen know. Praying for you!

  3. And anonymous is Jennifer -

  4. I'll be praying for you guys! Tell Danny to take good care of you.. have him bring home some of that birthday cake icecream for you. Keep that faith! Remember God is Seated on the throne and he's in control. Saying it and living it are two different things for sure, but with the spirit of God working in us we truly can live anxious for nothing.

    Our baby was due last Saturday.. but still we wait and wait..

  5. We love you and Danny and those two little boys so very much! We will remember to keep you in our prayers!
    Loves from Christine

  6. Praying for you and hoping you don't get too bored with bed rest! I believe my friend Amy (you have her email addy) also had an early issue with twin-to-twin so if you need some advice or comfort you can email her. Blessings!

  7. Maria, Luka, and I are praying for you and Danny and your beautiful boys.