"Remember how when he was a newborn and..."
I do remember when he was a newborn, but it depends on if you are talking about when he was first born, or when he was a newborn by his adjusted age. And probably, I don't remember how this or that went because we didn't exactly have the newborn experience. I'll admit, I'm a little nervous. Although this isn't my first baby, it will hopefully be more like the actual newborn experience, of which I generally know nothing about.
Hopefully this baby won't require isolettes, breathing tubes, oxygen, feeding tubes etc. But wait, I know how to deal with that stuff. What do I do with a baby that is born on time and does regular baby things? What do I do if I don't have to pull oxygen tubing around the house or worry constantly about whether he is gaining weight? I won't have 4 months to adjust to his schedule and numerous doctors and nurses to help me learn his routine.
I am excited that if this baby cooks the proper amount of time that he will get to wear clothes and eat and I will get to hold him right away. But I don't even know what a tiny baby does at night. For the first 4 months, we left Cohen at night. The first night that we actually got be with him was the first night he came home at 130 days old. I don't even know how to nurse a baby or how often he eats or how I know if he's eating enough.
So, I am feeling a little nervous. Like a first time mom who knows nothing. I feel like I should know more than I do! I'm hoping maybe I know more than I think I do, but I'm not so sure. I guess we'll see how it goes as a pseudo first time mom! I'm so thankful for my very supportive husband and family who I know will help us out. Even if I am a little nervous, I'm excited to hopefully have this "normal" (whatever that is) first time mom with a newborn at home experience.