Together

The last few days have been hard. Cohen is at such a fun age right now, he is learning and changing so much. I love to just sit and watch him "work" and play. But then there is always this little empty space next to him. A space where his twin should have been so that I could watch them play and learn together. I have a feeling that space will always be there. That little space where Carter should be, right alongside his brother.

Sometimes Danny and I will just sit and watch Cohen and say "Can you imagine what it would have been like with both of them?" And honestly, I can say yes, I imagine it all the time. We talk about how cute we think Cohen is and we say "Can you imagine how cute they both would have been together? Would we be able to handle the cuteness of two?" I wish I could know the cuteness of those two together.
 
I will always wonder about what could have been and I will always hurt for what isn't. I love this song that is below. I know that we will all be together in heaven again one day, but sometimes that day seems so far away. I hope I'm not misunderstood, it's not that I want to leave this world, because I love my family and I want to spend every minute I can with them. But, I also know that there is a longing deep in my heart for heaven, to meet Jesus and to be with my little boy. I am incredibly thankful that I have reason to hope and faith that we will be together again one day.