The thing is, they are wanting to get me into hospital orientation next week. Yikes. I was expecting to have a little more time than that to get everything in order, but here we go! I'm also keeping my other part time job, so between hospital orientation and training and my old job, I'll be working full time for at least the next month.
I have been a ball of anxious worry this week over the boys, how we will keep everything from exploding, and whether I will still be sane at the end of it. I've been trying to get some meals in the freezer, clearing off our schedule, and getting childcare lined up for the month plus someone to take Cohen to OT while I'm at work.
I have been laying pretty low in the job department since getting pregnant with the boys. I have needed jobs where I could only work part time and for the most part, choose my own schedule. I didn't work nights or weekends as is common with a lot of nursing jobs. They were perfect, low stress jobs for when I needed them.
Now, I feel like I'm ready for a little something more. I'm ready to be challenged a little, to get back into the "excitement" of higher acuity patients. The last few years have, necessarily and rightfully, been about everyone else. Growing babies, fighting for babies, supporting my baby in his time of greatest need, throwing myself into helping others to help manage my own grief. This is going to be hard, and I'm nervous, but it will (hopefully) be good.
Since it's kind of one of those things that has fallen into my lap, I think that it is God leading me in a direction that he wants me to go. One of our major goals for this year has been to pay down/off our debt. We are lucky that we don't have any credit card debt or anything, but we both have school loans, hospital bills, and an now an unexpected car payment. This job will help make that a realistic goal.
I'm trying to remind myself that it's only for a month. We can do anything for a month, we've done much harder things before. And we can eat off paper plates for a month, right? If you don't see or hear from us for awhile, now you know why!
(It's going to be good, it's going to be good, it's going to be good)