Fess Up Friday

I like to weave my way through the parking lot on my way back to my car. That way I confuse people and they can't follow me and sit there and wait for me to get my 2 children and the groceries in the car.

Danny stayed home with the boys for the first time this week. When I got home nothing was on fire, no one was screaming, and the house was clean. I accused him of having my mom come over and clean it. I'm still suspicious.

I have been dairy free for over a month (which is a HUGE deal for me). I was so excited to find out that mint oreos don't have dairy that I ate the whole package. And then got another one.

Cohen threw a fit when I took off his pajamas. He wouldn't stop crying until I put them back on. So we went to OT in Christmas pajamas and rainboots on a 70* day.

I can count on one hand the number of baths Ezra has had in his life.

It would take at least 4 hands to count the number of baths Cohen has had this week. 


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The Guilt

Cohen is having a meltdown over juice. Ezra is cranky and won't nap. I got very few hours of sleep last night. The dishes are piled high in the sink and the laundry is endless. The crying is taking it's toll on me and it all seems so overwhelming and I just want a break.

And then comes the guilt.

The guilt that says this is what you wanted. You said you would be happy if you got to raise your children. These are the days you were waiting for. You said you would give anything just to hear your child cry.

Sometimes I'm thankful for this little voice in the back of my head. It helps me keep perspective and to be able to sort out when I'm just whining and need to change my attitude.

Other times, I want to stomp on this voice. Yes, I did say those things and I am so thankful for my babies and that will never change. But, I'm only human and parenting is hard. Some days I just want to be able to be frustrated and tired without the guilt. I'm a mom just like all the other moms out there who face rough days.

A Free Man

I am so not looking forward to winter. I love summer and I love fall, but I hate seeing the continuous rain of the northwest replacing the sun. We have had an amazing summer, with hardly any rain which I think will make it even harder to see it go.

Cohen has absolutely loved being outside this summer. We have seen him grow tremendously in his social skills, his confidence, and his sense of adventure. He has been free to play and get dirty and see people without having to constantly be spraying hand sanitizer on everyone and disinfecting everything. He has been able to play with his cousins and go to the church nursery without constant paranoia. And it has been WONDERFUL. And so freeing. I can just enjoy the moments with Cohen instead of worrying about him nonstop.

{Who me? Tired? No way!}

10 Things I Love About You: Ezra

1. I love the dimple on your one cheek, it was one of the first things I noticed about you.

2. I love how you "talk" to us

3. I love that you have two chins and chubby cheeks and legs

4. I love your little mullet hair, business on top (hardly any hair) and party in the back (long and dark).

5. I love your snuggles and your "kisses"

6. I even love your grumpy faces and the serious looks you give us

7. I love how you snort when you cry

8. I love how sweet you look when (if) you sleep

9. I love your cute little fingers and your always curled up toes

10. I just love ALL of you and are so glad you are in our family!

10 Things I Love About You: Cohen

1. I love the way you drive your cars and trucks everywhere, including on my keyboard and in the dishwasher even though you know you aren't supposed to.

2. I love that you ask to go to bed and to take naps

3. I love how much you love your brother and give him big hugs and kisses

4. I love that you know so many words, my current favorites being "tato" (potato)

5. I love your fascination with people's knees

6. I love when you look at me with your big brown eyes and long dark eyelashes and give me a big smile and ask for a "hand" to hold

7. I love how much you love to play in the dirt, even though I have to bathe you constantly.

8. I love your sweet personality and your big heart.

9. I love how much you love your kitty even though he thinks you are the biggest nuisance on the planet.

10. I love that you are OURS and that God chose you for our family.

Ezra: 2 Months

Ezra is 2 months old, I can't believe it! It seems like he is getting bigger every day when I look at him. At 2 months he:

-  weighs 11 lbs 6 oz (a few weeks ago)
-  Has been on not one, but two camping trips (one successful, one not)
-  Is wearing mainly cloth diapers, but wears size 2 in a disposable
- Is wearing 3 month clothes
- Only sleeps about 20 minutes a few times during the day
- Is getting up 1-2 times during the night
- Generally looks like this:

- But sometimes like this:

Fess Up Friday

I licked a self adhesive envelope

I also put a stamp on the left corner of the envelope

I consider my day a success when I don't get any bills in the mail

It makes me ridiculously excited when I get to the end of the day and realize Ezra is still wearing the same onesie I put on him in the morning and I haven't changed his outfit 7 times

I let Cohen take Stinky in the bathtub with him because well, why not, he needed a bath too...

I told our cat Russell to go find a new home after I found him on the table eating my lunch while I had been trying to put Ezra to sleep.

I have thrown a burp rag over barf on our bed and gone back to sleep.